It's now 20 minutes to midnight and I know that I should be in bed, but I know when the sun rises I will only have to head off to work and so sometimes I just stop myself from going to bed and yet tomorrow I know as I'm driving into work I will be yawning and wondering why I thought staying up was such a great idea. I like my job, I enjoy working with the people I work with and I love knowing that I am capable of taking care of myself and not having to depend on anyone else, but than there are times I just want to stay home one more day.
We did nothing special today. Did some laundry, but not all of it, vaccummed the house and washed the dishes. Mom made bar-b-ques and brought it over for dinner tonight. I'm not a cook, I dispise cooking, I want nothing to do with it, what would I do if I didn't have my mom?
Little Addison is such a momma's girl that it can drive me crazy at times, but deep down I just smile and want to yell to the world "she wants me, she wants only me." I can't do anything without her crawling to me and wanting to be held and though my house isn't spotless, I still have to do something and I end up listening to her cry until someone takes her away long enough so I can finish the dishes or vacumming the carpet and when I'm done and before I can start the next project she's thrown back in my arms because all she'll do is cry "momma!" I love that girl and I love her big sister. I tell my oldest daughter that she will never understand how much love I have for her until she becomes a mother herself. You really have no idea how much love you are capable of having until you have a child. I love being a mother, best damn job any woman could ever have.
I have always said that I wanted to start a tradition with my girls, I want to do something that when I'm old and my girls are grown they can tell their children that my mom and I did this.... and yet my oldest daughter is 11 years old and I have yet to come up with something. I think I finally thought of something. I think for just one weekend during the summer my girls and I will take a little drive to some town, pick a hotel to stay in and do whatever we want, doesn't matter what we do, whether it's order pizza and watch movies in our hotel room or walk in that towns downtown area browsing through the glass windows. Just as long as we're together it's going to be magical. Now, I have to figure out what weekend it will be (I would love to do it before school starts) because McKenna and I have baseball games to go to on the weekends. There just has to be one weekend opened for us. 11 years is long enough wondering what to do and what tradition can I start. I can't wait to start making memories with my girls.
Well, I have to go, sleep is going to win, I can't stay up much longer.
Until next time.
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